loneliness
i miss people. it will be nice to have them back again on thursday. this week that they've been gone has been long.
i haven't eaten properly, haven't cleaned my room. i have, however, kept the bunnies and dogs from dying, picked berries in the garden, and sewed on the bridesmaid dresses.
i think washing the dishes at some point before my family comes home would be a good plan though.
there was a huge storm right over the house about an hour ago. thunder and lightning and everything. and then tons of rain. at least i don't have to water the flowers any more. the power went off for a second and nearly fried the computer, but it seems to have smartened up again. good thing.
did i mention that i was lonely?
i think i'm hungry again. i'm mostly hungry. i'm not sure why. probably because my schedule is so messed up.
i think maybe i'll work on updating my resume. maybe i can find myself a job that will allow me to eat at normal times, make it to church all the time, and be available to go out in the evening or just to talk on the phone.
i got my hair cut today. i was going to do something drastic, but i was scared to. so i didn't. it has to be long enough to do something with for the wedding anyhow. no guarantees about what i'll do to it after the wedding. it's useful. i can take my moods out on it and it always grows back. :-)
i have a disc here with the update to my EMD course on it. every time i put it into the computer to do a little work on it, i lose the screen display. whatever. i'll try again later maybe.
the blue of the dresses is really beautiful. i found some eyeliner exactly that colour. i'll wait and see if i feel like using it though. i need to find some nail polish the same colour also, to paint the zipper pulls for the skirts. they don't really match right now.
this is post is really random, and probably hard to read, since i was tired of writing with capitals, having typed reports for the last 5 nights. i think i'll make it harder and have the writing purple. i've always loved purple. only on blogs and in clothes though. purple flowers are okay, but red roses are always the best. and those pink gerberas. not purpleness when it comes to my flowers. i felt really tempted to buy flowers today, but we have so many in the gardens here that it seemed silly to even think about it. come winter i will though.
i forgot to arrange someone to play the piano in church on the 23rd. oops. i guess i should work on that tonight. i can't. i have to work. technically i can do it for the afternoon service, but i hate not practicing and i have to sleep before and after church. sundays working nights is only slightly better than working days. at least i get to go to church once on those days.
i have some stuff i want to do. i was going to pick saskatoons, but it's sopping wet out there right now from the storm. tomorrow then.
till next time.
i haven't eaten properly, haven't cleaned my room. i have, however, kept the bunnies and dogs from dying, picked berries in the garden, and sewed on the bridesmaid dresses.
i think washing the dishes at some point before my family comes home would be a good plan though.
there was a huge storm right over the house about an hour ago. thunder and lightning and everything. and then tons of rain. at least i don't have to water the flowers any more. the power went off for a second and nearly fried the computer, but it seems to have smartened up again. good thing.
did i mention that i was lonely?
i think i'm hungry again. i'm mostly hungry. i'm not sure why. probably because my schedule is so messed up.
i think maybe i'll work on updating my resume. maybe i can find myself a job that will allow me to eat at normal times, make it to church all the time, and be available to go out in the evening or just to talk on the phone.
i got my hair cut today. i was going to do something drastic, but i was scared to. so i didn't. it has to be long enough to do something with for the wedding anyhow. no guarantees about what i'll do to it after the wedding. it's useful. i can take my moods out on it and it always grows back. :-)
i have a disc here with the update to my EMD course on it. every time i put it into the computer to do a little work on it, i lose the screen display. whatever. i'll try again later maybe.
the blue of the dresses is really beautiful. i found some eyeliner exactly that colour. i'll wait and see if i feel like using it though. i need to find some nail polish the same colour also, to paint the zipper pulls for the skirts. they don't really match right now.
this is post is really random, and probably hard to read, since i was tired of writing with capitals, having typed reports for the last 5 nights. i think i'll make it harder and have the writing purple. i've always loved purple. only on blogs and in clothes though. purple flowers are okay, but red roses are always the best. and those pink gerberas. not purpleness when it comes to my flowers. i felt really tempted to buy flowers today, but we have so many in the gardens here that it seemed silly to even think about it. come winter i will though.
i forgot to arrange someone to play the piano in church on the 23rd. oops. i guess i should work on that tonight. i can't. i have to work. technically i can do it for the afternoon service, but i hate not practicing and i have to sleep before and after church. sundays working nights is only slightly better than working days. at least i get to go to church once on those days.
i have some stuff i want to do. i was going to pick saskatoons, but it's sopping wet out there right now from the storm. tomorrow then.
till next time.
1 Comments:
*hug* from me... hope you can figure something out for work. I'm sure we both know how it feels to be on a weird schedule.
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